Still Standing

A few weeks ago I received a BEAUTIFUL bouquet of flowers from my folks and my sister Meg's family. It was nice. REALLY nice. I mean I had been home from the hospital since Thanksgiving and they thought enough to send flowers. Love rolls in quickly in all forms when you are in the hospital or are fresh home from the hospital. People forget about ya after a while, I mean you are home, you must be well right? Well you know from my previous post that once I got home it was still one thing after another. Sure I wasn't dying, or at serious risk of dying, but I still wasn't well. And honestly not being able to do anything for yourself and being stuck at home once people stop dropping in and calling can be depressing. And when the diagnosis of pneumonia came on top of shingles, and diabetes and almost dying, I was sad sad sad...and was feeling VERY sorry for myself.

Soooo when the beautiful bouquet came of HUGE yellow gerbera daisies, and little yellow and white daisies with a lemon floating inside the vase. My heart smiled. The card was darling, and about the lemons that life was sending my way and that I needed to get my squeeze on and make lemonade (it was more creative than that, but you get the idea). The flowers really lifted my spirits. Not just because my family loved me enough to send me something bright and cheery but because suddenly I didn't feel forgotten.

Those flowers have all died now...except for this one Gerbera Daisy...hanging on and bringing me sunshine everyday. I move it around the house wherever i am. I ask J to move it for me too, she calls it my "happy flower".

I can relate to this flower. I should be dead, but I am not. And even though I have more bad days than good right now, I know that soon I will have more good days than bad.

So I am gonna try and keep a sunny face...like my gerbera daisy. I am going to remember that even though the phone has stopped ringing and I am not getting any floral deliveries, that I AM in people's prayers. I KNOW this, because I am getting better everyday, and that is miraculous.
PS. Jordan has been praying every night for me and she said the other day when I did something that was more "like myself" that made me laugh. She said, "uh oh looks like someone is starting to feel better, I guess my prayers are good!" AMEN to that!!