Thursday, November 29, 2007
I am also super SUPER excited to have a 10 hour drive to talk and laugh with my sister KID FREE!! Woooo hooo, road trip!! the snacks are packed, the CDs are picked and all we have is time on the open road to laugh our butts off, sing at the top of our lungs and eat junk food, CUZ WE CAN!!
I am also happy to report that my baby sister Meg is coming home with us for TWO weeks!! yee haw!! its gonna be all about Sister Time!!
I get to see many family members who i haven't seen for a little while but i am most excited to see Scotty and Kristie (my brother and sister in law).
OK you might think this girl is a little too excited about going to a funeral. i KNOW with all my heart that i will see my Grandpa Sam again, i KNOW this. i also know that he is in heaven and is really happy about his family gathering and being with each other. AND i honestly think after watching me and my sisters growing up that he is more than thrilled that we are all really good friends. i love my sisters, its a bond that i cannot fully describe but it am so thankful for them. i love my brothers too...but it's different...these chicks are my girlfriends!!
OK i am OFF...vrooooooooooooooom!!
Monday, November 26, 2007
yea i know there are other WAY more important things happening in the world and obviously i have WAY too much time on my hands...and this SERIOUSLY makes me look vain, but these are my thoughts...
can a girl get an Amen on any of this? please tell me i am not alone. what are you vain about? and do not tell me nothing...cuz i will totally pull the BS flag on ya!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
my Grandpa also passed last week and even though he has not been well for a long time now it hit me harder than i expected it to. i haven't felt like blogging. i know that once i return from his services this weekend i will have some things to blog about, but right now i am kind of just reflecting and being quiet with myself.
THAT all being said, since you miss me...i will post! i got this meme from my friend SWC over at Idon'tWantATitle
I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 5 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments.. what is it?
1. Produce: this time of year Fuji apples...YUM!
2. Bakery: whole wheat bagels
3. Meat: salmon or chicken
4. Frozen: broccoli (the best frozen veggie in the world!)
5. Dairy: yogurt
Let's say we're heading out for a weekend getaway. You're only allowed to bring 3 articles of clothing with you. So, what's in your bag?
2. denim mini
3. tee shirt
If I was to listen in on your conversations throughout the day, what 5 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?
2. ummm lemme think about it
3. sure, knock yourself out kid
4. wow, nice job!!
5. i love you
So, what 3 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn't get to do, you probably wouldn't be in the best mood?
1. laughing with my family
2. hugging and kissing my family
3. talking on the phone with my family
We're talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?
2. surfing the net
3. watch TV shows i DVRed
4. talk on the phone
5. cereal for dinner...most def!
We are going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it'll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?
You just scored tickets to the taping of any show that comes on t.v. of your choice. You can pick between 4, so what are you deciding between?
1. Oprah's Favorite Things (That would be soooo fun!!) - OOh, yeah....that would be really cool.
3. Dr. Phil
4. Three and a Half Men
You're hungry for ice cream. I'll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone. What 3 flavors can I pile on for ya?
1. Rocky Road
2. peanut butter chocolate
3. world class chocolate
Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what's in there?
1. lip gloss
4. pink sequined coin purse
5. note pad
You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in. Let's pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 careers would be fun for you?
4. that person that travels all over the world rating, hotels, spas and cruise lines
If you could go back and talk to the old you, when you were in high school, and inform yourself of 4 things, what would you say?
1. Just tell the truth, who you are is good enough.
2. No one is really talking about you as much as you think.
3. Be brave, don't worry about what other people think, go for it!!!
4. Don't try so hard. You're pretty like able just the way you are.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Jordan: i love you more than there are fish in the ocean
Me: i love you more than there are stars in the sky
Jordan: i love you more than there are sands on the beach
Me: i love you more than there are leaves on the trees
Jordan: (thinks for a minute) but its Fall
Me: (laughing) Oh, OK i love you more than there are leaves on the trees AND on the ground
Jordan: whoa that's a lot
Yes, yes it is. and more than that even...it's a love that cannot be quantified. but for now i love that she is thinking about it...good stuff!
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
I am Thankful for my family. i feel so blessed to have grown up in the home that i grew up in with loving and supportive parents. they never missed a play or musical (or anything else for tha matter) i was in and often worked hard making sets and selling tickets so they could be a part of my success. my parents were my biggest fans and taught us love, comapssions, kindness and humor among many other values. i also have really fantastic siblings who are a love a support to me. i love my family and i love how anytime we get together is a good time. i am also thankful that they have lovingly welcomed Paul and Jordan into our family...it feels like they have always been there too.
I am Thankful for my husband, Paul. he is everything i never even knew i wanted in a man and more. he has sacrificed so much in order to provide Jordan and i with a wonderfully enriched life. he loves me more than i have ever been loved before and is a wonderful example of unconditional love. he does many small things for me daily that remind me how lucky and blessed i am to have such a wonderful man in my life. his is also a really good daddy to our little girl.
I am thankful for my daughter Jordan. she amazes me daily with the love she shows me. she has added a new line to her prayers over the last few weeks that makes me smile, "and please bless HolleeAnn for taking such awesome care of me". i love hearing her conversations with our Father in Heaven, pure love. she makes me laugh, keeps me guessing and makes me grateful everyday that i have her to mother and love.
I am Thankful for my fabulous in laws. i realize how rare it is to have a mother in law who you love and get along with. my mother in law is one of my favorite people. she and my father in law are such a beautiful example of happily ever after. the way they are together is so....i have no words, its just fun to watch. my father in law is a really good man and the two of them together crack me up. i have said before that they are pretty much my favorite people to spend time with and i really mean that. they are also wonderful grandparents to Jordan and make me want more babies all the more, just so they can know the love of these two amazing people.
I am Thankful for my home. i tend to complain a lot about the things that are wrong with it. projects that are unfinished cause me much grief and stress. but it would be a whole lot worse if i were complaining that the duct tape holding together my cardboard box home wasn't sticking. i realize there are many people who do not have homes and i am thankful that i do.
I am Thankful for my health. even though my body does not seem to want to cooperate in making a child, but i am healthy and able bodied and for this i am grateful (but i still want it to get its act together on the baby making thing...i mean really!).
I am Thankful for friends. i am thankful for the friends i have made through blogging. i am thankful for the friends who i have known and loved most of my life. i am thankful for the friends my daughter has brought into our family. its so cool to become friends with your kid's friend's mom, isn't it? i am so thankful for those people in my life.
I am Thankful for this beautiful country we live in. i am thankful to the men and women who fight daily for our freedoms. i am thankful for the sacrifices their families make in order to make it possible for them to go where they are needed. i know sometimes the government gets goofy in its decisions but it could be a whole lot worse (really, just ask the people living in 3rd world countries) and i would not want to live anywhere but here in America, this land that i love!
I am Thankful for my relationship with my Father in Heaven. He is with me always and i feel His love all around me. i am thankful for the many blessings He has brought to my life. He knows me and He loves me. He knows my trials and my burdens and i know He also knows my efforts and blesses me for them.
and last but most def not least....
I am Thankful for the people who read our little blog here. the people who root for us, laugh with us, cry with us and keep us in their prayers. we are so so so so sooooooooo very grateful!
have a wonderful Thanksgiving y'all may the Lord bless your family this holiday season and always.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
for as long as i can remember i have wanted to grow up and be a mom. i have spent a good long time feeling sad that circumstances, bad marriages and horrible timing made it next to impossible for me to feel OK about bringing a child into the world. not really the world in general but "my world". i have had two failed marriages. my first marriage was set up to fail from day one. i was 19 he was 31 and had a daughter from a previous marriage who i tried to mother as best i could. but i was just a kid myself, and he was terribly abusive and controlling. it took me 7 years to finally face the fact that this was not a good place for me and that i needed out. i think it was mostly pride that kept me there, my parents had tried to talk me out of the marriage in the first place. my second marriage ended because of his mental illness and the problems that came with being married to someone with those kinds of issues. i didn't want a divorce, i knew what a really bad marriage looked like, i felt like i could stick with him through his illness and didn't feel like giving up. he had other ideas, he needed to get well and didn't feel like he could do that married. i realize now that he gave me a gift to find my happily ever after. i have found that in Paul, i never knew such a wonderful man existed. he is everything i never even knew i wanted and needed in a husband and more.
now that i have a happy healthy marriage with Paul i have taken that wish i have carried with me for soooooo many years and i am using that wish on every penny tossed in a fountain, every dandelion blown, every falling star and every single birthday candle. i carry a wish, prayer, hope and deep longing for a child of my own.
i have a beautiful daughter, Jordan, that my husband Paul brought with him to our marriage. she is mine, i love her and mother her like she came from me...and sometimes, most times i forget that she is not my biological child. she needs me and i need her. you might be interested to know that she also carries a wish and she to uses that wish on every penny tossed in a fountain, every dandelion blown, every falling star and every single birthday candle for a sibling. actually she is the one who first told me she was using all her "wishes for a brother or sister, or both, or twins". i decided that was a pretty good idea and started using my wishes the same way, faithfully. Jordan is a wonderful little girl and i would love to make her wish come true.
i realize in a very special way my wishes were not all in vain, since Jordan is in my life and i am able to mother her and feel like she is mine. i know with all my heart that she and i are a match made in heaven. but i also feel just as deeply that there are more little match made in heaven angels waiting to come home, to me. as long as i feel that in my heart of hearts i will carry this wish with me. my wish, prayer, hope and deep longing for a child of my own.
i wish i may, i wish i might, have the wish i wish tonight...
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Saturday, November 17, 2007
"She has been adopted but because she has not been spayed yet she is unable to leave until Wednesday, November 21 (her surgery is on Monday). She will be living with a Folsom family who is very nice. They seem to be a perfect match and Zoey seemed to like them very much. They lost their dog a few months ago, the dog had been their 10 yr old son's bed mate since he was 2 yrs old. They were looking specifically for a dog use to sleeping and being indoors with the family. When we introduced them to Zoey they fell in love. Because we had a home for Zoey we were able to get her in to be spayed right away, the family is paying for it. Zoey is a wonderful little pup, and we feel like this family is a perfect match for her. You might also be interested in knowing that the mother is a trained Veterinarian"
i feel sooooooo much better. i have been crying off and on for the last few days first trying to make the right decision and then wondering if we had indeed done the right thing.
this adoption place for dogs is the most amazing place i have ever been to. the fact that they care for animals, are nonprofit and no kill, and took the time to address my email (with details) is amazing. this was the hardest decision i have ever had to make regarding a pet that i love so much. i am happy that Zoey is going to a good home.
i miss her...a lot. and the tears are still falling, but i feel such relief knowing she has a home.
Friday, November 16, 2007
i can't stop crying.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
i pass this award on to the following people for all their bloggy goodness. Scotty , Meg , Meredith , Emilie , daringyoungmom , happilyshovelingwaterwithapitchfork , mascowbell , suchsimplepleasures , SWC , lyricsofmylife , pantsoptional and sheri . pass on the Splat my friends!!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
so we are driving one day and a commercial for a contest to WIN Hannah Montana tickets comes over the radio. YES, i think. that is what i will do, i will get out there and enter every possible contest to win the tickets...after all i love my little girl, i could at least try, right? so get to work online entering every radio station contest (even the ones in nearby states, cuz i am not afraid of a road trip...in fact i love a good road trip).
Jordan knows i am in all these contests, she also knows the chances are slim but she thinks i am very cool that i have us entered (and hey i like that she thinks i am cool)! i tell her about this one contest that i am not feeling like i want to enter...here is the conversation:
Me: hey i heard about another contest for Hannah Montana tickets
Jordan: cool did you enter?
Me: i wanted to talk to you about it first, to see if you think i should.
Me: they are asking mom's to shave their heads for tickets.
Jordan: (jaw to the floor) really?
Me: yea, do you think i should do it?
Jordan: let's make daddy do it, he is a boy and if his head gets cold he can wear a beanie!
Me: no they just want girls to do it, cuz its a bigger deal.
Jordan: nah, let's skip this one.
Me: (relieved) yea good idea
so far we haven't won any of the contests. but i think my cool points for trying will last for a little while...at least until The Cheetah Girls begin their tour...
Saturday, November 10, 2007
so, yeah tomorrow i will be looking to y'all for some ideas on what to blog about. in the meantime if you have any suggestions i would really really REALLY love to hear them...i am pretty open to your ideas.
to hold you over here is a pic of me and my goofy little girl (ok i am the goofy one, but you can't see the bunny ears she is shooting on me!)we were on the ferry to San Francisco..my goodness i love her!
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
So yea today was just a little bit of an embarrassing life lesson for me. I dropped Jordan off at school this morning and watched her walk for a little while, thinking…”aww she is looking so cute today” and as I went to drive out of the ‘drop off zone’ I felt a little tap from behind. “Oh no” I think, “not today, today I am wearing a 10 yr old (at least) yellow nightgown with stars and moons on it, slippers, MAJOR bed-head, no make up (thank goodness I shaved my legs last night) and no bra!! AAAAhhhh NOT TODAY!” what should I do? I am NOT getting out! The nice gentleman in the suit gets out and says, “I am so sorry about that, I just wasn’t paying attention and started to roll. There is no damage to your car and mine is just the headlight and a little scratch.” (panic panic..has he noticed I am in my nightgown?) “oh um OK, then no biggie” I say. He looks at me and says, “You can come look there really isn’t any damage to your car.” “Oh umm OK, nah I trust you, it’s OK” (panic panic…please don’t ask me to get out of the car…pleeeeease!!) “Really ma’am your husband would probably want you to at least check.” (Oh NO he did’nt..this is MY car, my beautiful Durango that my husband bought ME for my birthday…don’t tell me what My husband would want me to do!!) but instead I said, “oh um OK, hee hee I am in my nightgown, uh embarrassing, hee hee” and he just steps back to allow me to open the door and get out!! So in parent DROP OFF zone traffic I get out of my car and walk around to the back and look… "yep you are right no damage, um OK have a nice day” I say heading back to the safety of my car. And 3, THREE cars drive by and roll down their windows to shout out words of wisdom and unsolicited advice, “it always happens on the one day you don’t get dressed” and “uh oh, that’s embarrassing” and “oh no poor yoooou” ....UGH. why why WHY??? why today...?
I pretty much laughed my butt off the whole 2 minute drive home…I have a love/hate relationship with life lessons where I look like a total jack ass…but whateveah.
Monday, November 5, 2007
yep i miss summer...already!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
LOOK!!! we received an award...like 3 hours after my Paul posts on our blog we get an award!! AWESOME!
so i guess i would like to start by thanking Karen for bestowing such a lovely award. i am seriously excited about this, mostly because blogging has become a huge outlet for me, and the friends i have made here bring me a lot of joy! i don't care what anyone says bloggy friends are real friends too. blogging started as a way to brag about my adorable kid and my amazingly wonderful husband AND a way to stay connected with my family who live far away. it has become so so so so much more to me...i really can't explain it. those of you who blog can most likely relate. thanks again Karen...really...thanks!
so i would like to pass this award on to a few people whose blogs i really enjoy reading.
my new friends... Sheri at PantsOptional , Kellan at OnTheUpside , NobodyCalledToday . And my sister Meg here and her cute friend Sheena LittleJibsons ...both of these girls are those perfect little mommies that make you say "awww" and gag all at the same time, you know the ones i am talking about...but i ain't hatin! lol
My seven random things
1. I love documentary TV. I can watch The History Channel, Discovery and TLC for hours. Some of my favorites are; Mythbusters, Survivor Man, The Last One Standing and any of the many shows about gangs and prisons.
2. I am a master of frozen pizza art. As you can see pepperoni and cheese make a great canvass for expressing your feelings, mainly happy and sad but whatever works. Every other emotion beyond those are pretty much like the extraneous colors created by Crayola. Like burnt magenta is a real color…puh-lease
4. Although born a natural brunette I look great as a red head, especially when braided in pig tails.
5. I love taco trucks. They are wonderful purveyors of fine, authentic Mexican food. Not only is the name “roach coach” unfair, it is inaccurate. I have never seen a roach living in or around the taco truck.
6. Guns ‘n Roses is the best band ever. They freakin’ rock man!
7. I am a better person because of my wife. I think I have always been a pretty good person. I get a long with people easily and I like the majority of my co-workers. HolleeAnn has helped me become an active father and an attentive son and brother. I have no doubt that with her by my side our future together is very bright. Regardless of bumps in the road we have a lot to look forward to while enjoying our life together now.
OK so that was cool and everything, but I think I will continue leaving the blogging to HolleeAnn, since she does it so well. And because after reading comments and stuff (many from people I do not know) she seems to have a fan club, who, like me, prefer reading her stuff.